Hi! How are you?

Hello.

I hope you are well.

Me,



I'm so very tired.

And it's not from

Having slept too little.

No, if anything,

I have been sleeping too much.



I'm so very tired

Of the repetition of a life

Where nothing is coming.

Where I just have to keep doing

What I don't care about

Over and over.



I'm so very tired

Of having nothing to look forward to.

Being paranoid that

Nothing will ever change.

That things will never be different.



I'm so very tired

Of not seeing anything worth coming back to.

You can't care about me in the way I hope you could.

That's how it seems.

I'd like to know why you haven't just told me that yet.



I'm so very tired

Of you telling me to be hopeful.

You've been saying things will get better.

Well I've been waiting my lifetime for things to get better.

And all I get is those words that fall on ears

That just can't believe them any more.



I'm so very tired

And it's not from a lack of hope.

If I didn't have hope I wouldn't have made it this long.

I wouldn't be clinging onto this almost meaningless life.

Even if I don't show it, I must have some hope

Clinging stronger to me than anything else ever has.



I'm so very tired

Of living this dream any more.

A dream is a fantasy of hope.

If it happens and is reality, then it was never a dream.

Please, put me in the state of a dreamless sleep.

I want to go to that sacred silence out of my misery.

Or please wake me up and be there for me.



That's what's up with me.

I hope you are well.

Bye.